Friday, July 22, 2011

Forget who you are, be where you are-Cultural Center; Accra, Ghana

It was almost 9 when I arrived in Accra. It was too early for the tourists to be out in the market, and the only noise was the drum carvers tapping away. Martin and Sam were in the shade of a mango tree between their drum shop and the soccer pitch. Martin sat on a cracked djembe shell wrapping his knee and lacing his cleats; Sam stood leaning against a failed elephant carving and picked at his nails. I wasn't sure it was him; it had been a month since I had met Sam on the beach of Kokrobite. I stood behind them and watched the soccer match waiting for some hint that it really was Sam. As an elderly Ghanaian turned to offer me his seat, Sam took notice and beamed at me.

"Julian, my brother, how is it?" he said, smiling wide as he stepped towards me with arms outstretched. I pulled Sam in close. I had only spent a few hours with Sam in Kokrobite, most of which we were on the dance floor for Big Milly's reggae night, but he had captivated me with his chivalrous nature towards our group and his sincerity in speech. I had come to Accra to see Sam and learn how to make drums.

I spent the morning in a circle of drum makers, straddling various djembes as I finished their lacing. With each weave, my motions became faster and more fluid; with each weave, the skin on my soft hands tore as I stretched drum head tighter; with each weave, I forgot more of Julian and let myself become a drum maker. As we sat weaving, lacing, sanding, and staining djembes under the shade of a palm, every difference between me and Rastafarian drum makers dissipated into the afternoon heat. My mind drifted from the work that was waiting for me back at the refugee camp and settled on the sound of the ocean nearby. My eyes glazed as I gazed past my drum to the soccer match; I silently laced my djembe. My mind resettled on the game. My hands didn't care what my mind was doing. They no longer needed my mind to finish their work. The moved quickly and effortlessly. I stood the drum up and finished polishing the base before setting it in the sun for the skin to dry.

It was already 3 o'clock; I was starting to remember Julian and forget where I was. "I think I'm going to head back to camp. I've got work that needs to get done," I said to Sam as I walked towards the front of his shop.

"You are welcome to leave anytime, but I've just ordered us food," he said through his wide smile.

"...I should get going." I couldn't forget Julian.

 He heard the hesitation in my voice and handed me a finished djembe. "Do you play?..."

... Julian was gone again. The African drum maker was again in my body. When we had finished eating our stew, palms still sore and red from drumming, we wandered into "the Jungle" for drinks. The shanty town spanned the gap between the arts market and the beach. The blasting music and cloud of pot smoke that defined the Jungle went largely unnoticed by the tourists occupying the market and the sandy shore. The Jungle was never passed though by tourists; it was only passed around, by-passed. It's only occupants were the various craft makers who lived there and a handful of Cameroonian business men who came there for the cheap food, plentiful drinks, and promiscuous women. After winding our way though the narrow alleys we stopped in front of the white house, a description Sam used even though more than half of the white paint had chipped or pealed off. The inside of the house was clearly visible through the large gaps in the exterior walls. We stepped in and continued up the stairs. "This is where I sleep sometimes when I don't feel like going home," Sam said as he unlatched the trap door to the room above. As I stepped up into the dusty, sunlit room, I could see that the white house contained only a neat row of sneakers and Sam's "sometimes" bed. It was a thin mat that could hardly hide the feeling of the floorboards beneath it, but it was good enough for a place to lay one's head after a night of heavy boozing and smoking in the Jungle.

We continued out onto the 360 degree balcony that wrapped the house. As I stepped out of the door, I momentarily looked down as the floorboards flexed beneath my weight. The rickety house creaked and swayed in the wind and finally came to be motionless again. I looked up. The view was a stunning juxtaposition to the claustrophobic alleys of shouting women, drunken men, and blasting music that lay just below the balcony on which I stood. In the distance, waves crashed into the sandy shores as tourists screamed in excitement and ran to keep the bottoms of their jeans dry. The smell of alcohol and ganja gave way to the aroma of sea water that accompanied the soft ocean mist that just barely reached the house. To our right, we could see the tin roofs of the Jungle sprawling out into the distance. Straight ahead was the beach, and to our left was arts market.

Sam and I sat silently, backs to the white house, bare feet on the railing. We stared into the distant beauty and listened to the world around us. A Ghanaian flag flapped and snapped in the sea breeze; the waves hissed and fizzled as they hit the shore; the djembes of the market let out deep bass notes and high slaps. It was all music to my drum maker's ears.

Update from last time: Apparently the cure for homesickness is exercise. I had been working long hours and not taking time for myself and my body. After a few mornings of working out, I feel like Julian again.

Friday, July 15, 2011

Finding the cure for homesickness-Buduburam Refugee Camp, Ghana

After 8 weeks in Ghana I was struck by an acute case of Ghanaian Homesickness. 

This condition can be brought on by long stays in West African countries while experiencing extreme fatigue due to a week of emotional roller coaster rides. Symptoms include: tearing up after meeting someone from PA that reminds me of home, feelings of sadness accompanied by sighs (especially when looking at date of my return flight), strange cravings for cheeseburgers and sushi, dreams that the final Harry Potter movie will actually come to Ghana, and recurring thoughts of family and friends.

Symptoms may worsen if fatigue is exacerbated by severe dehydration and malnutrition due to diarrhea on Sunday night. Symptoms may be lessened with application of copious amounts of peanut butter, chocolate, and other sugary substances; however, patients should still seek treatment.

If symptoms last more than a few hours, seek hugs; if available, cry into a shoulder or a pillow. Look through pictures of wild parties and summer vacations posted by friends on Facebook. Western remedies include texting of close friends and family, but studies show that actual phone conversations may be more effective at combating the sickness.

 Presently the only known cure to Ghanaian Homesickness is a Delta flight home on August 16th.

Thank you to everyone for your support. I love it here, but I miss you all.

Tuesday, July 5, 2011

Life is Precious-Buduburam Refugee Camp, Ghana

"Julian, are you on camp?"
"No I'm on my way home from Volta."
"Julian, I need to tell you that......"
"I can't hear you, Amelia. I'll call you when I get back."
"But Julian, I ........" click


After two more hours of travel, I had completely forgotten about Amelia's call. I pushed open the door to the guesthouse, dumped my weekend bag on the floor of my room, and fell asleep with only my toothbrush unpacked.

The next day as I dished out food with Amelia by my side, my mind was on the internet cafe that I would be visiting in a few hours. Amelia abruptly continued the conversation from a day earlier. "You know Precious?" My mind raced, I remembered that I hadn't called her the previous night. "Agnes's little sister Precious."

I knew her; Precious was one year old. She was the younger sister of my favorite child Agnes. Precious was the most beautiful child I had ever seen. Her eyes shined, and they seemed to smile at the world as they took it all in. Her hair was short and curly; it was a lighter brown than most people on camp which suited her lighter shade of skin. She giggled uncontrollably when Agnes tickled her. She usually gave a sharp shriek when she saw the color of my skin. I had played ball with her exactly one week ago. It had been the first day she had not been scared of me. She had toddled over to me and handed me the ball. I lifted her up, and she sat in my lap, happily cooing.

"She's gone. She died on Sunday."

My mind spun. I stared at the floor and let the intense emotion wash over me. My mind couldn't grasp the situation. My face grew hot, but the tears wouldn't come. I was far away from my body. Amelia put her hand on my back. Her touch reconnected me with the world. The floor grew blurry as my eyes filled with water and tears streamed down my cheeks.

By the time Agnes had come to get her food my eyes had dried, but they still betrayed me with their redness. Agnes sat next to me; I stroked her back as she ate her cassava and stew. Her calm face and collected manner had tricked me into thinking she had come to terms with the loss of her sister. After two bites she pushed her bowl away and stared at the floor.

Agnes had always been willing hold my hand for hours but had refused all offers to sit on my lap. She didn't resist now as I lifted her into my arms and cradled her.I held her tight and rocked her as we cried on each other. Everything that she had held back from me came out as she started to sob. Everything that I had held back from her came out as I started to sob. I needed to hold her as much as she needed to be held.
Agnes holding Precious